I am currently very dissapointed at myself. There's just so much i wanna fret about in here but i might as well not. I know its good but I just felt like i can do better. I just feel like killing myself now. Can someone just pull the trigger? Now everyone is going to see me differently. I don't even want to go to church. My heart feels as though someone just stabbed right through it with a knife. I don't feel like talking to anyone. Sue me if i don't deserve to feel this way. Who in the world freaking cares anyways?