Seriously, i hate this feeling of not knowing anything.
I am simply clueless of what I should do in the future.
Law? Pharmacy? Psychology?
I do not want to do what I do not like to do.
I am in the pure science stream now and if I wanna do law, daddy is scolding me for wasting his money, my time & effort in science.
God, I really need to know what I can and need to do in future. Please? I beg you..
Show me somehow or another. Please?
I just feel so so SO pressured.
Finals are coming up in no time.
Parents blaming me for EVERYTHING that goes wrong at home.
I hate being EMO this includes coming up with emo blog posts.
I just wanna shout & scream and cry!
I don't know what is there I can do at this very moment.
I will continue to pray tomorrow but I am talking about NOW.
You know its like when you finally have something in your mind of what you are gonna do in future & then you tell your parents and they start scolding you.
So discouraging.
You know somehow it hurts knowing that you're away when I need you the most.
Its not your fault I don't blame you but don't blame me for building up a wall.
Things and feelings just accumulates and there's simply no way of letting it out.
Not to you or to anyone for that matter.
That makes up that wall.

Honestly, I hate this feeling.

The feeling where everything around you just doesn't turn out right or it just doesn't make you happy.

The feeling where you just hate the situation you are in now.

All I wanna do now is to hide.

If you think this had something to do with love or any relationship, you got yourself wrong there.

I am talking about my life as a whole.

Oh well, time wouldn't stop for me & the Sun will still rise the next day.

I'll just have to embrace, endure & live with it hoping this will turn out better.

I'll pray & make the best out of it eventhough the situation I am in sucks.

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.I am So close to suicidal.

I.am.currently.so.full.

My.stomach.is.about.to.explode.

I.kidd.you.no.

Anyways, I went over to Myra's place for her open house. So i stuffed myself with loads of ketupat and I mean loads ok with like rendang and SERUNDING! Yummss :) Then I came home and I stuffed myself again with like half a bamboo shoot of lemang with beef rendang. Then I had like red bean dessert. zzomg. Can die. I really wanna explode. I am such a pig. *slapsmyself*

Alrights, Daddy screaming his lungs out now. Ish!

Hello all! Yes yes! I am so sorry for not updating. Here is for you guys who always keep track with my updates. Thank you for all your support.

Well, exams just finish and I've been catching up on things I've missed.

For example, my sleep.

Let me just further tell you about my sleep.

It is no biggie I am sure those older than me has been there done that.

Me thinks.

Anyways, on sunday I slept about 1 ++ in the morning close to 2am, tuesday at like 12+, wednesday only at 3am and on thursday 12am.

If you think that isn't bad enough, I have to wake up at 4am for that 4 days.

Why? Because my exams starts at 7am and I have to be inside the exam hall at 6.30am.

I always have this habit studying a little bit before sitting for the paper so waking up at 4am isn't an option.

So I slept for 14 hours straight since yesterday so i am here now awake updating.

Right before I go into the exam hall. I cannot even see the Sun yet & it was raining so heavily. The exam hall is so so so cold. It feels like sitting in the fridge and it is not for an hour or 2 but 3 hours plus. I brought in a winter jacket on the last day. Couldn't take it.

Now, for all the random pixxies.

All the bruises from carrying my files and notes around during exams.

Mooo's little surprise. I did not lie to you!

While driving. I think. *winks*

Silly me, I fell off half a flight of stairs and everyone stared at me. *hidesface*

So just yesterday, I went out with my churchmates to watch G-Force! It was quite funny though. Nice movie :) I ENJOYED it alot. hee! We went to cineleisure to watch movie. Had breakfast at the curve and lunch at ikano? I think. I woke up like at 7.15am to go to KL to fetch my babies. Haha! So yeah. By the time I got ready & left the house it was about 5 pass 8am. Stopped by the petrol station and then reached there at about 9am. Made our way to curve and was there at about 10am.

Bo is putting her eyeliner using the mirror outside my car because esther was putting her make up using the mirror inside my car.

I look so different in this 3 picture.

Behind the wheels. I was blushing all the way while they take this picture. Can you imagine 2 camera just snapping pictures in your direction while you're driving asking you to smile and all? Anyhow, it was nice. I shall gather all the pixxies from esther's phone.

All in all, I had a really great time with my churchmates. We shall do this more often.

Just for laughs. This picture is quite funny. I look so retarded.

That is all folks, I hope you enjoy the updates. I will update soon. Maybe tomorrow.

Love you guys loads,

Cwissie.

Hello! Here is the long awaited update! Finally got the pixxies from Stanley. He takes really nice pictures and somehow just makes you and everything else pretty :)

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So last Sunday the youth&adults organized this married couples night (Cherish the Moment). Some of us (including me) stayed back to help out with the deco and later on wait on tables.

It was tiring being out the whole day.

We had so many briefing and there was also training on how to hold the plate.

So many little petty things that we have to take note off. Phew!

I ain't waiting on tables no more.

This was a little as I was doing it with a bunch of craazzyy churchmates <3

So I shall let the pictures speak for itself aights?

Me doing the deco! It was tough ok? Had make sure the rose petals were nicely arranged without it looking too arranged.

Thats my hand. I had to pose for it.

The deco on the tables :)

Daddeedearest&Mummy

My baby! :) Her name is Sandra.

Bo,Esther & Me

I love this <3

That bunch of crazzzy people. :)

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Weird-o-happenings today:

The cendol man who is an indian i think started to talk to me in cantonese. WOW! What was weird is that he ended the convo by looking at me for sometime and say, "You are very pretty you know?" (in cantonese) and I just smiled and look away.

is.satified

Christina Chan

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been really busy and I am not joking. I think it is probably towards the end of the year that things starts to get all hyped up!

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The not-so-happening happenings :

*Physics presentation

1/09/09

*Directed Investigation

2/09/09~3/09/09

*Mathematical Studies Common Test 4

04/09/09

*Physics Test 4

07/09/09

*Trial Examination

14/09/09~17/09/09

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I've got a really nice update coming up but i have to get all the pictures first. The photographer is away somewhere with no internet at the moment. So, here is a little sneak preview of that update. (pixxies from ovr)

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Weird-o-happenings today :
mummy commented on my status this afternoon on facebook. How weird?

i still feel a little weird around you.

ChristinaChan :)