Torn & Worn

This picture was taken when i was studying history. I was all drained out that it took me alot effort to forced that smile. and yes, I do wear specs! Nerd-ie-fying.

It is only the first week of exams and I am already so torn and worn. I feel a piece of old, smelly, shabby and torn and worn piece of rug. Haven't been up keeping myself? Probably. Well helloooo?? Exams? Does that ring a bell? History and BM is wayyy gone! yeah babeyh! no more Bm, no more HISTORY! For LIFE! i hope.teehee! So Bm was, okay for the fact that i could still manage doing it. Didn't shiver or trembled like what happened during PMR. History was crazy! My brain almost went out of service. English, no comments. Maths, it will be okay if I didn't make silly mistakes. =) I am quite nervous for BK actually, another history like paper. My hands are seriously aching. I couldn't even hold my pencil at the end of the day. I think it is going to break. My fingers especially. Don't be surprise if you see my fingers all cast up. My wrist hurts. sigh. What a terrible side effect due to exams? Don't you think? So, besides exams, I feel really unsettled. Certain things are putting me to dirturbia! And no one seems to get it? Anyways, I just can't wait till it over! I'll hang in there and get through this. Keep going on you guys! I smell freedom Babeyh!

Don't ask. This is how i look like when i study. my brother took it.

This is the worst outcome exams can probably bring about. A swollen finger. The plaster is so cute, it is red with a teddy bear and it paws all over. ahaas. =)

To you!

ZzOmgawd! Well, the war starts tomorrow for all the form 5s this year.

Its tomorrow!!! I bet all of us just can't wait till its over yes?

Anyhow, ALL THE BEST to all of you!

Thank you all for your encouragement and support.

I really appreciate every word of prayer and also for keeping me in your prayers. =)

Well, the feeling that its tomorrow sucks but we have to do what we have to do.

I am not aiming high this year, just hoping no to fail.

All the best once again.

Cheers to you! Let us do this thing!

*hugs*

LOST

It won't be the same now,

Me and you will never fulfill a vow.

To keeping secrets and crying through the night,

Like there is nothing to hide.

I am so used to you being always there,

Making me unhappy you never dare.

Now it won't be the same,

Till forever will our friendship slowly fade.

The best of friends we became,

I have never felt ashamed.

I have lost the one thing that is true,

My bestest friend, YOU.

I hate you for this,

but I have to accept the way it is.

I wish you all the happiness,

Leaving a trail of what is best between us.

Sorry seems a lie,

So I am letting you flyy.

Love seems gone,

We are torn.

This is CRAZY

The weather is crazy.

It is driving me insane!

It is so HAWT! zzOmg!

I have been sweating the whole day,

even after i had a cold bath and my fan was on.

I will not turn anything on after I bath usually.

I feel like I have a built sauna at home or something.

This is crazy! Anyways, exams are in, a few more days?

Everyone is studying like crazy while I, still have the time to blog.

Silly me!

Pixels i left out

It melt my HEART

Today we went to visit the Rumah Penjagaan Kanak-kanak Cacat, Taman
Mega. We left at around 2pm and arrive there SAFELY. And i repeat, SAFELY. This is because there was this crazy driver who is probably drunk or maybe in his right mind having one of those 'road rage' days. He was scary! He is such a NUISANCE! Okay, back to where we were. We arrived there at 2.30pm. When i first arrive kids were everywhere! Actually not all of them are kids and some are even quite old.

They are not physically spastic but more too being mentally challenged (as i would not call them mentally retarded or spastic) Some of them are quite normal as in they can talk to you like normal people do. There's this down syndrome little girl dressed in a hot pink outfit. She is so quiet and i got to know that she's a Malay mix Chinese and her name is Mei Mei. When i went there she was playing and suddenly she wanted me to carry her and she clinged on to me like a Koala bear. Then she will cry if i would to put her down and finally she gave in and someone else carried her. She was heavy. She is about 4 or 5 if I have not mistaken. Then there is this man who likes to say hi and shake your hand, so everytime i pass him, he will shake both my hands and say hi. He's so cute! haha! Some kids are hyperactive thus they are tied to the wall. What a pity.. *sigh*

Some were immobile. They will just lie there on the floor and would not talk to anyone. I met this very cute lady. She is about 40 and she is just so cute. She will hug me and smile at me and play with me. She likes balloons! =) Then there is this other woman who is also a bit mentally challenged who loves to sing songs. And she would make everyone sing with her. When we were singing, she always want to hold my hand and she hug me asking me to sing with her. I am just so touched by her. So I was a bit scared when i first arrived but after sometime, i decided to step up and so i blend in perfectly with everyone there.

We started singing songs to get them warmed up and they were so happy doing the actions with us. We were singing and dancing and laughing. The kids were very fun to hang out with not forgetting the rest who were living there. Then we made donuts for them with all the colourful sprinkles on them hoping to brighten up their day. The place got a little messy as some of them have difficulties in eating. There is this one boy about my age i guess. I can't see his eyes and i do not know whether he is blind or not but he had cream all over his mouth and hands. No one took notice of him but I did so right away I look for tissue paper and went over to wipe his mouth and hands. Some kids here are really sick, they have asthma and they have to be fed through tubes. This just makes my heart sore. So all I can do is to show love and to let them know that someone still cares. The One above still cares for them.

Its a joy to see them smiling and although some will be a little weird like they will push you from the back and run from one corner to the other end but they were all so special in their own very way. I really miss them all already. I believe they tried to express themselves as they are also human just like me and you but in a more special way. I miss seeing the smiles of the children as they crowd around me singing songs, fighting with their other friends to hold my hand and that they were being loved despite our differences. They just want to be loved.

These kids are really special to me because they impact me in a way not many people can. They are strong to live through till today what more a person like me? Yet, this is not about me and the impact these people had made but what matters the most is the impact I have made that made their few hours of their life a whole lot of joy, laughters and hope. =)

One of the kids. I think she is tied to the wall or chair.

They were dancing and singing. This girl in brown said i was pretty. hee!

The donuts. =)

More pictures to come I promise. =) Have to edit. hee!

Dead

I don't think I am going make it big time.

SPM is drawing closer and I am not even prepared!

I'm prepared for the worst I tell you.

Parents wants me to do medicine or become a lawyer.

I don't want to be both.

I just can't imagine myself doing it.

*screams!!!*

I am like an unarmed soldier going for war. (lame i know)

I might look happy but I'm dead worried.

I just can't wait till it's all over!

I can't wait to have FUN with all the programmes that have been lined up after this over!

a.desperado.crying.out.for.help

Christina

So after like berjam- jam of tuition we, (me,steph,ungku,alvena & thareni ) went for our usual lunch break break. We were like the ones who doesn't take bio but have add maths later on so we went to mid valley for lunch. We walked around abit, I bought a pair of new earrings. I can say it was quite a catch. =) We had lunch at Kiku Zakura. It was some Jap restaurant. The tepanyaki chicken was simply delicious! Alvena was all hyper and we all had a pretty long lunch till we were so very late for nirmala's. Thanks to Jamie who wants us to get big apple for her! We were rushing, so we ate our donuts in the car while steph was driving. Ungku shall not hold the box next time. The donuts wasn't donuts anymore after that. hee! She had cream and chocolate all over her face. funny lar. =) Okay so Jamie called a hundred gazillion times asking us where we are and our standard answer will be "on the way!" and she will ask, "which way?" She even plotted a plan to cover up for our grand entrance later at tuition. It worked actually! =)

At the car park. Self-timer. teehee!

Kiku Zakura.

So we survived nirmala's death stare when we entered late for tuition. Add maths went by really fast i must say. Probably it was because we came in late? So after tuition me, steph and jamie had nothing to do, so me and jamie just tag along while steph run errands. She had to get her mum something from the pharmacy and then we went back to her house to grab cash as she wanted to bank it in. Her house is unbelievable I tell you! She doesn't boil water at home but buy water. Like bottles and bottles of water. And her dog is scary .Me and jamie had a hard time going in and out the house. Jamie had an umbrella while i hid behind her. So back to her house and room! Have you seen her room? Pictures paints a thousand words.

So this is one corner of her room. It looks like the store room right?

This the amount of watches she has. Almost all berbling-bling.

This are my hands fitted with the amount of rings this woman got mann. No joke. There are still 10 or more. It couldn't fit any of my fingers anymore. No space. You can save money on your wedding ring next time. And also every other anniversary or valentine's day. One finger has about like 5-10 rings okay! Omg.

This is her dinning table in her kitchen. It became some kedai dobi and according to her, the amount of clothes stacked on the table used to be more the day before or so.

This is her kitchen.

And after a tour around her house, we head off to the bank and then to KL. Miss jamie lim haven't been to sungai wang or even know where is KL plaza. It was also the first time me knowing and seeing where Pavillion is. Seriously. It was okay but its a little deserted don't you think? I don't know. Its not my choice of where i would go shopping. So we parked at pavillion and then walk to sungai wang. Jamie was like a 'jakun'. She was like "Wow" and "Ah" She also couldn't keep her mouth shut as all the rempits passed us by while we walk. She gave strange stares and comments. Me and steph will run away if any rempits picks a fight with her. We eventually warn her to keep her mouth shout everytime we walk along starhill and lot 10. So we finally reached sungai wang and we decided to take sticker pictures! Well, jamie wasn't really a fan of all this and she was saying it was lame and stuff but in the end we took it after all.

According to Steph, we are like little kids drawing. But we actually editing the pictures. Jamie's editing was the worst! Haha!

Some Jap sotong ball. Recommended by Jamie but looks pretty disgusting to steph.

The pink ribbon. We SUPPORT against breast cancer!

Coach! Steph likes the background.

Outside Lot 10

.LV.

Pavillion!

That pretty much sums up everything! =)