You.

After class today, it started raining heavily and I was walking towards my car with my umbrella up. I looked up and took a sniff of the air and it was somehow thoughtful. I know my brain was being thoughful about something but I just couldn't decipher it. It was just a short moment and I was back paying attention to getting over to my car.

My ballet flats were drenched and it was uncomfortable so I took it off and started to drive. It was an easy journey back. Like somehow my brain was being in its thoughtful moment again. Got home, relaxed a little and took a shower then he called. Talked as always then I blew my hair dry and went downstairs to make a hot cup of milo. It was soothing as it was rainy and it was chilly. This is prolly one of the days where I just wanna curl up with a hot cup of drink. I started to watch The Notebook. It was relaxing and towards the end of the movie, I teared.

For those who watched it, you'll know what I'm talking about. Most of us think the whole 2 teenagers in love knowing they are for each other and parents do not allow thingy only happens in the movies but tough luck, many do go through this scene. Me.

I do not resent anything as long as we're together but I wish things were better. Anyhow, after I watched the movie, I thought of you. I teared and felt so strongly inside that I'll be so devastated if we turn out like the characters in the movie. I'm scared. I don't want us to be like a shooting star where everything looks so happy and perfect and in a split second its gone forever.

I do trust your promises but man do fail and disappoint others. I just hope and pray you don't. Well, I know deep down you won't but from experiences I learn to never get my hopes too high. All I wanna say it, cherish your every moment with your mr/miss right when you found him or her. I will cherish and will always.

To all whom has read this. Please do not spread anything. Keep this to yourself. Thank you very much for this favour of yours :)

With day to day,

I look up and pray.

"Daddy up there, please don't take this precious gift You have given me today",

Hoping He'll say, "Little one, that precious gift is here to stay".